I was recently asked the question: What's the most difficult decision you've had to make in your relationship? I quickly realized that I had a tough time answering this, and, well, that's kind of scary. Isn't it? It's true that we've made some big decisions together. Deciding that we're ready to get married, that it's time to buy a home together, that we're ready for a dog. I'd be lying though if I said that any of these decisions were difficult. Every decision made with him just feels like the easiest decision in the world to make.
I knew for a long time that he was the man I'd be with forever, and because I've always imagined myself marrying young, that one was a no-brainer. Perhaps I struggled with the idea of moving in a little. It went against a pretty big moral that I grew up with. While I love the idea of waiting until you're married to live together, I decided I was going to have to dig deep on this one and truly make up my own mind. Then there's Riku, our poor little rescue. The sweetest heart, but with more anxieties and insecurities than we sometimes know how to deal with. Looking in those sweet brown eyes though, that one may have been the simplest.
So, when then? If it's been this easy so far, when do the hard parts come? The really, really hard parts? And how hard are they going to hit? Don't get me wrong - I would never believe our relationship to be perfect. Far from it. Sometimes I feel like hurling things at him, sometimes he feels like strangling me, and sometimes we say things we don't mean. But at the end of the day, it's easy. It's always been easy together, and I have more faith in this relationship than I know how to describe.
I decided last night that Riku isn't just preparing us for children, she's preparing us for teenagers. The tough parts hurt. Deep down in my heart, they hurt. Not for me, but for her. Never knowing what she's been through is tough on us, but it brings us together. Maybe this is our biggest hurdle - trying to show this pup that we love her unconditionally and that we're here to protect her.
But with our whole lives ahead of us, I'm sure that won't be our toughest.
Hey world? Bring it. We can handle it.