Changes

This picture was taken at the beginning of my first year of University.  Four years ago now feels like a lifetime.  Eighteen and probably the most confident I have ever been in my life.  Funny how when I look back now, this is the year I criiiinge on most.  {And not just because I was about 10 pounds heavier.. and that it all went to my face..}  I had no idea then that I would end up earning a living on the other side of the country.  I had no idea that I wouldn't be a teacher.  I had no idea that my family would leave the home I grew up in.  And I had no idea that a year later, I would cross paths with the love of my life.

I guess where I am going with this, is that I kind of don't know what to do with myself lately.  It's hard to accept that this is the first September since I was five years old that I'm not going back to school.  Especially because I'm not going back to STU.. {best.uni.ever}.  

I miss Eastern Canada.

I miss my friends.

I miss getting up at a decent hour and walking to school.

I miss sitting in class with a coffee.

I miss creative minds bouncing around a room and giving my brain a workout.

I even miss evenings spent at the study hall, and trudging home in the snow knowing that I still had two baskets full of laundry to do before bedtime.

I miss feeling that productive.  And knowing that I was in the midst of accomplishing something worth accomplishing.

.. Even though this is where I worked so hard to be.

Honey and I on our own.

Building a future.

Becoming successful in all aspects of our lives.

I'm learning that it's time to let go of the past, and of adolescence.  

This IS where I want to be.

And this is easily the happiest I've been in my entire life.

I'm surrounded by the people I love most in this world.  And nothing has ever felt so fulfilling.

But dang, those were four amazing years.